REST

I'm sure most of us have those days when we come to the end of the daylight feeling totally exhausted instead of full energized. Where all we want to do is lie down and rest.

That is something that does really make a person inclined to groan out of relief that day is over. And it is easy to wonder at times how come things have to be so exhausting too.

As if we couldn't feel a rush of euphoria over the experience. Just be able to sit back, smile and feel a sense of victory from surviving it all.

But it never seems to quite work out that way. We just don't feel all that victorious. Tired, but not victorious.

Somewhere in all that exhaustion can linger the question of is this really worth? If we have been doing the same thing for years, even more so.

And if those thoughts fester too long, it can build into a terrible ache. Some hunger that digs deep into our essence and says, "quit."

We can easily engage in such situations in deciding that we deserve a reward for all that faithfulness. In reality, we are saying in directly how we feeling cheated because we didn't get a reward.

That leads to the need to reach out for what we feel has been denied to us. Which never quite ends up with rewards we crave.

Does it mean we don't have a right to be resentful? I think we have a right and need to be honest about our feelings with the Lord. To tell him what is on our soul.

This doesn't mean he will necessarily reward us for such prayers. That doesn't necessarily follow.

What it does mean is that he can have his holy spirit touch us with understanding. And that can include sight into things beyond our understanding.

We have to also embrace the truth about our own lives. That means we have accept that at times we have not, because we really have not asked.

There is a difference between praying for God's help and actually expecting it. Just praying and not truly expecting him to keep his promise are not the same.

It is so easy to fall into that rut of praying without such mind set. And also to not accept our limitations. God knows what we are capable of and what we will never to. He will reach out to us in love and help us where we are. Some will find that leads to the limelight others will not. But wherever it leads as long as God is guiding we will be at the destination carrying his blessings.