ALWAYS AN EMBER

There are some moments in life that time never seems to completely cool. At least not that I can tell.

Memories do have emotions. Some good and some bad. We don't always get a chance to filter out the bad ones.

Wish that were the option, but it isn't. Instead we have to carry around in our mind all the baggage of life not just the suitcases of smiles.

But the problem is that there are times when life it would be great to erase the bad times. They can smolder in our thinking and resurface in a second for one reason or another.

Which is okay, as long as we don't pretend they don't exist. Such is the nature of life. I've known so many who have said they have forgiven some wrong or moved on from an experience, but in reality they never do.

You can tell in the way they talk about the event. Their voice carries the emotions and feelings like it was still alive.

If one doesn't admit and confront that truth, they those experiences truly smolder in one's mind. They never go away or end up truly being forgotten.

I had a discussion early with a person on this subject. They wanted to believe the past was over and they never thought about it as still alive.

Yet the spirit said otherwise. I could tell the memories still haunted and bother them. Oh in their thinking the past was over.

And the fact they had learned from it did contribute to the thinking. But in reality they still had those feelings that it was alive on the inside.

It was just hard to admit to. And problem they never seem to be capable of accepting. And as a result it still manifested itself in their lives on a different level.

This is the part that truly does haunt. When the past still eats at us and we don't think it does.

God does forgive us. And at times when we have trouble forgiving ourselves, it does help to trust to the Lord for our forgiveness.

We may still have the burden upon our lives, but we can trust to the lord for strength to keep moving ahead. Honesty does bear down upon us a times.

Spending time pretending we don't have the same urges at the rest of the world never brings the fruit of peace.