SAFE

SAFE

Feeling secure truly gives of all us a better joy than any form of paranoia. And how blessed life would be if we never had a reason to worry.

I wish I could say I never worried. I'd be happy if I got through any day without panicking over something.

I don't confess that with any degree of pride. Just being honest. Which might not be the type of thing a person who claims to have faith should admit, but it is the truth.

For me the main problem stems from my basic sense of insecurity. This hasn't exactly made me able to always be positive.

Which I might not be as incline to react that way if I hadn't had so many occasions when the thing I fear or worried about actually happen. And then there were other incidents when the unexpected occurred.

So I do have a few flashbacks that often rip at my memories. Panicking just naturally follows.

Does that mean I don't have any faith? That I don't believe I trust in God for any reason? Some might think that.

I don't. To me being flawed is just another reason to lean on the Lord for strength. And I have no sadness over admitting that is what I do.

Which is perhaps what means the most to me. God doesn't expect me to be perfect. Even in my ability to trust him.

There are those who make it seem as if you can't be blessed by God if you don't have a faith that never wavers. But that is not really true.

Doubts do creep into our thinking no matter who we are. It is just an issue of how often, which will vary from person to person.

All of which is understood by the Lord even if we try to force reality through a straw of our own bias. Fortunately God is more merciful that we are in that regard.

But we have to accept it as true. Which can give even those who are like me, never in a position to feel safe, some hope.

That is enough to help us keep trying. Knowing that in our weakness God can truly demonstrate his power to help and heal.

How much more blessed this is than those who sit and lie about their problems for fear they will be seen by God, even though he sees them anyway.