DREAMS

There aren't a lot of things in life it seems where close is really perfect. And when it comes to dreams, man do any of us like close enough?

So we wander that wilderness of life at times, hoping upon hope heaven waits to be found somewhere we haven't yet looked. It is a dream we can hope works.

And when our expectations get out of line, we naturally invent tales of possibilities to second guess how some event will unfold. That almost always ends with disappointment.

For now one can always know the heart of God or his plan so perfectly that we never make mistakes. We see things too often draped in those veils of our desire. It blurs our vision and can make us have totally unrealistic expectations.

And then God displays his wisdom by shining some light into our eyes. He shows us his will.

If we are willing to be trusting enough, then once we get beyond the point where we can feel disappointment, time can hopefully let us see the rainbow in our darkness. That is the more or less that we have to struggle with.

I can't think how many times in my life I've look at something, so sure of the outcome and not even been close. It can so hurt when you feel the pain of how what you wanted the most out of life won't happen.

And I wish I could say that I always saw the wisdom of God's will in some situations. But there truly have been times when it just never has made any sense how something unfolded.

I'm going through a situation like that right now. I came to a threshold of change that totally was like being struck by lightning.

My mind raced toward certain conclusions. For a while I was totally convinced my dreams that had died long ago would come true.

That changed yesterday. It was so crushing, yet somewhere in all the heartache I did manage to remember God is still God. That his word is eternal and I have followed that path and do not plan on abandoning it.

But along the way, you do stumble. You do have the precious time to heal and recoup. That is one part of more or less that will always burn bright enough to hopefully keep us warm.

So I sit tonight, penning this posting, heart heavy in part from the sadness of yet another heartache detour. Still doing what I can to trust to my Lord's hands as the ones that always know best.