EYES BEFORE DAWN

In the darkness the pupils are supposed to open widen to allow in more light. It is a natural process that our body does without us having to think about the action.

If we are watching the landscape from just before sunset till it is complete dark, at first the change is so subtle we might not even notice it for a while. Eventually as the light diminishes enough we know things have changed.

But can we bring that extra sensitivity of eyes open far wider at night to a day without it becoming blinding? I'm not an optometrist, but I imagine the answer is probably no.

I sit here on a Saturday, isolated from the world in the little bedroom of my house I use for my writing. It is night outside my window, I have the television playing some movie that I'm barely listening too, let alone watching.

This is my normal routine on Saturday night after a long day at work. As a writer it is my refuge and relaxation. It is also a doorway of spiritual leading at times too.

On more than one occasion I wonder what the point of it all is. Will any good really come from my meanderings in thought strewn together as sentences.

There are other times when I can't help feeling this is in reality a way to avoid the world and the isolation my life has become. There is no place for me to visit or dwell with friends or spend my time in a different more productive method. At least that is what i tell myself at times.

Is this a confession of loneliness? Am I basically wandering for the sake of complaining about my existence?

For me the answer is no. It is merely a reflection of what I am talking about. Dawn is more than the point where the sun rises on the horizon.

It is on a spiritual level when we are guided to some true we haven't seen before. The truth was always there, but we just didn't notice it.

But in the darkness of questioning and the times when we sink into the recesses of our doubts, God's voice can often be heard. It might come as a still small voice or something more dramatic. But it will be heard in a way we can understand.

Taking those revelatory eyes of night into the dawn is not always an easy task. There is something about natural light that lures us away from such insights at times. We are feeling more secure, more confident, more ready to face another challenge.

But the God who was there in our shadows still ministers to us. And to embrace this sight means to not forget or let the dawn prevent us from knowing what comes into our souls in the darkness.