CASES

The wonderful file of life's memories. Each a case of seconds experienced, some with a good ending, some without.

Each preserved with a fuzzy collection of scribble explanations. Not done in a way to actually translate into anything clear, but containing memories.

Some of the cases are more vivid than others. The ones with traumas seem to truly be so alive and stick in our thoughts.

Still we move ahead and try to find the joy hopefully instead of the heart ache. Though some are harder to close than others.

Reliving the past can be beneficial. If it helps us to look at the future better then it is a good thing.

But if it becomes a eulogy for the future, if we give up and never write another file, then it is other than helpful. And we only suffer from that process.

Unfortunately that doesn't keep us from trying to rewrite the cases when we can. Does that really work? No.

But it might make us feel good. And that is the part we will probably always be a major difficulty.

How I wish there were ways of rewriting the facts. I would love to take one of my cases involving a missing joy in my life and redo it.

All those segments of what it used like liquid paper may make the day seem more pleasant in the mind, but it doesn't change what bleeds through the whitewashed effort. Just makes it still obvious to the mind.

In any event I am aware that no matter how hard we try to massage the facts or change them, in God's file cabinet the truth remains. We can change those no matter what.

And the joy is to have the times when we know He feeds them into forgiveness's shredder. Then the never are able to be seen again.

Providing we don't mess with adding too many of excuse's staples the always make the file hard to eliminate. Not for the Lord, but in our minds.

Through it all we survive and keep going. Cases keeps piling up. They never decline. And that will always be the fact we can't ignore.

Unless we decide to do like some and let ourselves take the time to stuff them in denial's closet. Though the door lock is broken and we can never stop seeing the files.