WORTHY

I always thought this was an interesting word. For who truly defines the worth of anything?

How often we can find ourselves in the place where our value is subject to opinion. We can have enemies that hate us and will naturally see us as worthless.

What is even sadder is when our family takes on the role. For they seem to have the power to truly harm the most in that regard.

I can say that is a good thing, merely that it does happens. The hard part to me is arriving at some point of real honesty in terms of one's worth.

It can be such a challenge to find a balance and real view that isn't distorted in some way. One's self esteem can be so easily bruised in the process. And we have so many ways we often respond to that issue.

Some fall into a hole. A very dark abyss where one can not see or feel any light. Just the long pauses between sobs. Self pity consumes and one never truly feels any hope for their is only darkness.

Then there is the other extreme. Where one lives in the clouds and is always above it all. No problem ever will force gravity to burden the life. It will always feel so full of hope and yet never bothers with reality.

Both extremes never truly result in some kind of real clarity of one's worth. It all becomes so artificial. At least those consumed with the light know they are looking for things to improve, which still feels good compared to being depressed all the time.

God in his mercy will always let us have free will. He won't zap us with the need to be think we can conquer the world or decide to end it all.

What his spirit will do is empower when we are feeling down and calm when we are feeling too full of pride. All for the purpose of helping us to enabling us to function in a more healthy frame of mind.

In order to be sure we are able to function without the inner voices overwhelming. That journey so need in life where we travel by truth and not by deception.

And along the way we find the mirror of his revelation. The one that tells what is our real worth.

In God's eyes we all have value. And I know it must grief him to see when we don't honor his creation.

But for those who turn to him, he will grant us joy to see in ways that gives hope.