REVENUE STRIDES

Labors of the heart done in hope of profit. A constant obsession when in need of survival. Which is pretty much all the time for most of us.

What sucks us dry though is labor without reward. I have been struggling with this a lot lately.

When one walks a path chosen by God he doesn't line that path only with gold. In fact it may not have any gold at all.

And at times it might even have too many occasions of falling to cactus. As I look back at my own life I have always been so discourage by the times when trusting the Lord and trying to be obedient has brought heartache.

I might not expect it to bring riches or blessings constantly, but heartache is tough choice a times. It is like being punished for doing right. The mind has a tough time accepting tht as a blessing.

There are many I have seen in life who aren't faithful and yet have lots of good things happen to them. It is very hard on one's heart and soul to see how often that happens.

You just sit and ask the obvious question, what's wrong with me Lord? How come I don't deserve as much out of life as this other person who doesn't even worship you?

If one is honest that question does touch at times. I didn't say we actually admit to it. At least not to the lord.

Instead, we can get depressed or upset and even resent this situation. It can be even worse if in the process of prayer for understanding it doesn't happen.

That can really rip at the guts. And if we pray for understanding and things get worse, oh my that can really weigh on our souls.

Those are times when God truly tests our faith. For he never promises perfection in this life. Nor the blessings were crave.

Instead we follow in our hearts without knowing. We seek and are faithful only savoring the image of heaven to keep us going.

Is that enough? Not always. Is it what we must embrace? Yes. For God at times will not allow us to do other than trust in him.

That can last a life time in some cases. And even if the vision isn't clear. We must keep walking.

Such is the nature of truth that we don't always care to face, but it is the truth just the same.