ESCALATING

It would be great if life went in the direction we always desired. But no matter how we view it, when God is leading us, the path never is one that we can necessarily control.

There are many occasions when that isn't always a bad thing. Lately in my life some of the areas that were once a concern have faded. The changes happened so subtle and natural that I didn't go into shock even though ultimately it was a major escalation of our lifestyle from the past.

At the same time there have been transitions in other parts of our life that were never expected or even desired. This to was an escalation on a personal level that in part left me excited, but also a tad confused.

I have tried my best to see the Lord's hand through it all. Sometimes that is easier than others. It is always such a temptation to look at some change and ask, is this a blessing or a punishment.

The mind simply can't help pondering so we can apply logic to what isn't necessarily logical. Which is the biggest problem. What happens is not always something that will make sense in terms of this life.

God, who sees all and knows all looks at us with his eternal eyes and touches in ways that reach more than the now. It has effects related to eternity. Sometimes we do have trouble appreciating that fact.

And no matter what we try to grasp in terms of interpretation from a given event it is hard at times to always appreciate the wisdom of some situation. Plus the reality is that we can't always expect to fully understand such escalations.

I think the plain fact is that God at times simply leaves it unknown so we have a reason to trust him more. For it is when we don't see clearly that we must rely upon sight from our souls.

That might seem like a fair answer, but it is the one that at times we have to accept. I don't think that is God being cruel either.

Some might not be able to accept such a choice. Which is still part of the battle of deciding whether or not we can trust God.

I do feel there are times when God does give us insight. That he does so to help us during the times when the darkness comes still trust him.

They are those installments of trust that should be our spiritual foundation for times when we feel a distance and so incapable of grasping life. It is just hard to always remember that. And when life escalates doubly so. Still we do what we can to keep marching. Sometimes the steps are all that keep us going.