WHEN CLOUDS COLLIDE

I think that our creativity was intended by God as a blessing to help us cope with the reality of how often life is other than heaven. We can escape via our mind and savor being whoever we want for a while.

As children this is a natural process, but as adults I think it is often regarded as a frivolous adventure. And in reality we do have to spend a certain amount of time accepting reality and dealing with it in a practical level.

But that doesn't to me mean that we have to abandon our passions or dreams. They might not be where we can live, but I do feel we can and should let God help us find the smiles in the midst of the shadows.

Those wish clouds often fill our sky of thought. And they can dangle up there indefinitely as long as the breeze of hope is there to push them along the way across our mind's eye.

So perhaps we have some talent that isn't yet been realized as a part of our lives. We don't profit from it or have a way to use it so others know about it. But as long as the promise of someday lingers in our thinking that cloud will still be suspended in our sky.

Then comes the fateful day when perhaps we have two different dreams say about a rewarding career and some dream to pursue a given type of lifestyle. And even though we want to avoid it, we have to make a choice between the two clouds for the clash with each other. One of them will sooner or later evaporate from our hopes.

What is the greatest passion and desire of our life isn't always what ends up being a possibility in reality. It is easy to ask how come God knows our heart's desires so well, but doesn't end up opening doors for those clouds of wishes to become a solid part of our existence.

In my life, as I see it, writing is my basic passion and also and extension of my faith. I have penned enough creations to know that for me this is not just a vain pursuit in terms of my talent. Yet, no matter how hard I try and how much I write, success has never graced me in that regard.

It doesn't keep me from writing. That flame of desire just burns to bright. And without the fame or riches, God has graced me in some small way with a joy to keep sharing in a small way the thoughts he give me.

So this cloud of wish has collided in my life with the one where I must work at a regular job in order to make a living. Yet, I am grateful that in the collision it didn't evaporate. It merely drifted to a place where I can see it and enjoy it even if it is overshadowed by larger more demanding clouds. Sometimes it is enough to simply be faithful and enjoy the sky even if what we see is not the vision we prefer. To that degree, we have to accept that God does control the wind and it will blow fortune where he desires.