The Time Clock

I sit in the darkness and hear the ticks
from that clock that cancer
placed within my life.

No clues how long it will
keep on working
or when it will possibly stop.

If I could change on thing,
it would be to have this question mark,
this wondering wasteland,
suddenly turn into clarity.

To have the chance to end
all the tests and treatments,
let it come to a halt
without a morbid end.

Not that I worry over eternity,
but do wish my family a chance
for us to truly stabilize our security
so they will remained able to chase their dreams
regardless of what happens to me.

Meanwhile I trust in the Lord
seek the choices that have the most promise,
quietly chase rainbows
and refuse to stop living.