CHANGING

Oh my can this be a headache. I'm not talking about the usual types of transitions. Or even the volatile ones.

I'm speaking more of the subtle times when we really are facing some change that won't devastate or destroy. It just annoyance.

They are enough of a change to mean a disruption in ways that interfere with our expectations or routine. Which is very aggravating.

And the more one is prone to like to plan and control life the more this becomes the ways the Lord will test us. I hardly jump for joy over it.

But the only way to learn is to face such challenges. So we can learn what truly grows inside.

That isn't always a joy. It isn't always the kind of process we feel inclined to celebrate, but it is part of the walk of faith.

I wish I could say I had a way to avoid it. But that would be silliness. For none of us is perfect.

And thus we all have our strengths and weakness. The trials will make us see both better. Which is part of why they come.

The last few months I have been face with a different kind of test. One where I had to face what I really loved.

And the funny thing was it was a whole different than what I first imagined. Honestly, without the trial I wouldn't have seen the change inside.

Did I enjoy it? No. Was it fun in anyway? No. And did going through it come to a point where I graduated so it was over? No, again.

This is perhaps the hardest part of the process. To find oneself ever face with having to repeat the same process.

For it is necessary to refine. And the same means always is used. It might have a different stress point, but it is still there.

So we go through the vice grips of life. Squeezed and forged according to God's plan. Doesn't mean we enjoy it.

Nor is it wrong to admit that. We must still travel that same road. And hopefully see the landscape along the way.

Enough to praise and not complain.