Beyond The Sums

The math doesn’t add up in my favor,
cancer and heart attack,
age and the ever declining nature of its pull
upon the mind, body and soul,
just treading water in a river of tears,
barely holding on to another frayed thread of faith,
when I cry oh Lord for that renewed vision
what now is the path you seek for me?

It bodes harsh this current trail,
through pain and burdens that have no end,
but I cling to the promise of His forgiveness
and provision for my every need.

Then I exhale the temporary visions of my void,
reach out by trust in His promises
to let peace come in the struggle,
find the light His will would shine
not to dwell upon my own choices,
instead to celebrate and obey
wherever He would lead.

Out the detour where I fell,
now I simply yield and embrace His unconditional love,
allowing it to write a hymn for my lips
enough to give a chance to truly walk again.

Those steps will go where He leads,
sometimes it is there are times it gets fuzzy,
yet is the steadfast nature of faith
and by His spirit’s power will it carry me
unto the terraces in praise and thanksgiving
as the foundation to grant calm
taking me by His mercy
one step more to the place I’m meant to be,
which will bring peace in the simple haven in joy
felt from not fretting what I am,
instead embrace what He will empower me to be.