ALONE

The one thing I appreciate is that you don't have to be on a deserted island to be alone. One can feel isolated and alone in the middle of a crowd.

I think it in part comes from various sources. How we feel about ourselves, our capacity to relate to others and a host of other facets tied to in inside each of us.

I've never been accused of being the most social person in the world. I generally don't go to parties very often because I'm a dismal failure at small talk.

It isn't that I hate people, I just am not good at rambling over things like the latest movie that I probably haven't seen or the other things that are often popular. Which leaves me so often sitting in a corner of some room bored to death.

Not complaining about such times of activities. It is just my nature. For me being in such settings leaves me feeling alone.

I don't imagine I'm alone in that regard. I have a feeling I'm not the only one who feels left out in certain situations.

Why is it that somehow you have to be the life of the party or you are considered somehow boring and dull? Like nobody accepts you have any real worth?

That might not be the case in real life, but sometimes it does seem to be the way some express that aspect of personality. Only I do know a few that are in the same situation.

Outside of the usual situations of social dynamics there are the occasions when one is in a church setting. We might be there in keeping with the Lord's will and bonded together by a common element of faith, but none of that has much to do with our personalities.

So even though it shouldn't be the way churches function it is the way it does work most of the time. The basic rule is if you are outgoing by nature you will be the same in a church setting.

And likewise if you are an introvert in other places you'll be that way in church too. Only it doesn't mean that we are going to be treated with respect for this fact in a house of worship.

What I don't understand is why is it assumed that if you are Christian you will suddenly become totally outgoing. As if the Holy Spirit is suddenly going to make you the life of the party.

But you are always going to have those who tie spiritual and the idea of making disciplines and saving souls being some kind of sales job. If you aren't a salesman by nature, then you will in their few never be faithful to God. Personally, I think if have to be a salesman in terms of selling God to the unsaved is required by all a lot of believers will be in trouble. Course nobody bothers to somehow appreciate that the Lord is the Lord of the Harvest I guess. We each play that part regardless of if we are party animals.